it's over

Alhamdulillah..

Everything went back to where it is suppose to be.Allah show me the man that i should be with throughout my future.insya'allah..

I am just glad that Im not in a confuse state right now.I definitely hate it alot.I dont deny that,yes,your feelings can change just with a blink of an eye.but it is about how firm you are about your decision and prayers by God.

I hope that this relationship can last long till the end of my breath.

I love you..

God Bless you..

Raudhah

A New Hope

The dust has settled. The tussle between forces have ceased. Many virtues was lost and virtual abstract damaged. Two warriors left standing. Battered and bruised. The princess then hold one of the warrior's hand and said "I've decided. To be with you, for eternity." The warrior look deep into the princess eyes to search the truthfulness of her words. Silence.. Then came his hand and grasp hers but he said nothing. Slowly lifting up the princess to her feet, still he said nothing. His grasp was tight but it was not driven by anger. It was forgiveness, believe and love that comes from the heart that made up the warrior's hand to be secured to the princess', protecting her. The other warrior can only look on and then slowly began to back off, smoke from the burning ashes of the ground engulf him in his retreat, disappearing forever. The warrior along with princess walked towards his stallion, waiting for in a distance. On the way, picking up his blade, wiped the bloodstains with a silk cloth. He stopped and looked at his sword as if it is listening. He said:

"The best man does not always wins. The man that wins, is the man who never say it is over, until it is over."

Then he said some prayers and thank Allah for his guidance, strength and blessings and sheath in his blade. When they both were on his horse, he asked the princess "Ready?" She nodded with a smile and they rode West where the setting sun is settling down. The end is the start of a new beginning. Praise to Almighty Allah.

Yur Heart is Not Mine to Keep

My love journey has been a roller coaster ride since i came back from OBS. I never experience this kindof complex situation in my life before. Its the combination of my fault + Third Party + Her fault that caused all this ruckus.

I jus came back from visiting her. She fainted yesterday noon n i had to take half day leave. I was super worried about her. But yet, i cant show her so much love cuz I dont trust her animore and we're taking our time off. So ya. No sayang2 no mushie2 stuff. She gave me a jolting birthday surprise wen i arrived at NUH. She was on the wheelchair holding my cake, while mira n khai was at her side. I'm touched. So touched. Yet i cant show my love. What i'm showing to her now is care n concern. Love is not there animore. My heart urge me so much to show love but my Pride is hurt. It'll take quite some time to heal itself. As i push her back to her ward and watch her sleep with all her "get well soon" gifts, I was telling myself, "This is the woman i love so much, but i dont wanna be with her cuz her heart is no longer longed for me." Soft strokes to her hair with her hand grasping mine and placing it jus beside her soft tender cheek. Once in a while she'll open her eyes to see if i'm still beside her. Hearing her cute snooring and wiped her drool with my own handkerchief, making sure she'll deep in her sleep then i take my leave. But not before slipping my ring into her left index finger and kissing her forehead. Coming back home, checked her mails and read one of the mail she replied to Oska. Its a long one but i understand. I fully understand right now. That even though after being discharge from hospital, she wants to "come back" to me, I know, her heart is not with me. Her heart will always be with Oska. Hurts me alot, but I have my Pride. No point loving some one who loves u but her heart is sumwhere else. No meaning to put yur heart and soul if her heart is not yours to keep. Pointless, Meaningless. I've been putting up a brave facade when guy(s) call u up and u answered right infront of me. Guys calling u out of the blue, calling u jus for a chat. For god sake u're attached. Yes proving to me dat there's nothing wrong btween u guys by talking infront of me but i dont like it. I hate it. I bloody damn hate it. If u dont understand den i'm sorry. U dont like when girls call me right. The END..

More Updates!

HeyLo PPl..

I've been bz lately.. With exams and all. First of all, I jus wanna say dat i got a GreeEAAT weekend with my Baby last week which is on the 13th March.. Even though I failed my MQC exam. AAaaahh.. Heck care lah.. Got retest wat..

Weekend
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I bouGht a Super Cool FujiFilm Digicam model SD2000 i think.. ahahha.. $500 bucks at the IT show at SUNTECH.. It Was f**king pack with ppl.. Super duper pack.. Read the floor plan first before entering the warzone with Baby.. Identify our target and we penetrated the think terrains of the IT show.. Did some surveys and analysis, finalize our plan and carry on to strike the target. BAM! Got it with a free Tripod, screen protector, extra battery, camera pouch, HD connectors. Worth it.

On Sunday before I walk in back to HTA, ate at Mac D and had a good laugh down there while waiting fer the rain to stop. Well, we decided to play bowling fer jus 1 game. Though my bowling skills is not up there, i still teach Baby how to bowl the proper way cuz her ball most of the time will end up in the gutters.. Haha.. But after a 'listening' to my advice, no more gutter-ing fer her.. Thumbs UP! Keep it UP Baby.. After that i wanna play arcade.. Sooo the very long never play.. I play shooting game ofcourse. Baby join along.. Haha.. Looks like shes getting the hang of it.. Cool! I got a shooting sidekick. Moving on, we headed to VIVO CITY to..... watch muvee.. haha.. wanted to watch "coming soon" but wasnt the right timing. So we watched Dragonball EVOLUTION. Jus a So So muvee lah.. But i enjoyed it cuz i watched it with my little Baby.. HURRY HURRY wen went home.. I jus remembered that i havnt pack my things for book in.. Baby helped to iron my shirt and pants while i'll chuck my stuff inside my bag.. At around 2015hrs we went off sending Baby home first before proceeding to HTA with a heavy heart. What a weekend I had with her.. It could be rated 10/10 if not for me failing my exam.

In Camp
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I got SILVER for my IPPT after a long vigorous, intense training. At last, a sense of achivement. Thank you very much to my OCT counterparts for supporting me all the way.. I really appreciate it very much. Very very much.. U guys know who u are.. The next great news i got to hear is, my Superior did some assesment to my MCQ exam qns, moderated it and from 9 failures cut down to 3. I'm not 1 of those 3. Phew! Phew! Phew! Syukur Alhamdulilah.. I dont wanna re-study the stupid book again.. A huge burden had been lifted. We left with Staffwork Exam and OBS.. But we all now POP mode already.. Hahaha.. Who cares a f**k about OBS.. I like lazy a wanna go OBS. 2.5wks leh. Beh tahan sia.. Hmmmm... dats all lah.. Tomoro book out day~! Looking forward to it. Now, going to bath, change up and go recruit's mess to watch K-Nite!! hahaha.. F.O.!! Hahaha.. Fly Off lah.. Dirty Minded ah U all...

Updates!

Hi all,

Yeah yeah i know I've been AWOL-ing from blogspot fer quite a while.. I've never been bz and tired at the same time in my entire life. Guess wat? ATTACHMENT! Although the attachment has ended, i jus wanna say I MISS MY ATTACHMENT PERIOD!!! Was attached to one of the NPCs in Juliet div. Started of abit awkwards cuz new stuff, meetin new ppl and new procedures.. As days past by, I got used to it. So used to it that I even brought the 'attitude' back to camp. During my attachement we get to arrest ppl, attend t ppls's enquiry, its jus basically getting the feel of how a real policeman life is.. And i can say that i realli appreciate those policemen out there who is have realli dedicated their lives to make Singapore streets safer. I realli do understand their situation. Its not easy. I'm gonna miss my team charlie.

Putting attachment aside, I had a hard time slotting time fer my Baby. At times i'll be realli2 bz tot he extend that i cud not spare a min jus fer an sms. Cuz from the 1st day of my attachment I was the 2 men. So I have to learn how to write the log sheet and use the Cubicon system as well. But i tried my best to msg u whenever i can rite Baby? Sometimes I do call u up and ask how r ya. I do think of u when i'm doing patrol. What r u doing in school? Have u eaten? U got any problems or not.. I cant rest in peace. I cant have toilet break in peace. I cant even eat in peace! We must always be on ur toes. I hope u understand Baby. I know u understand cuz my Baby is an understanding lady. Spending time with u has always been a habbit fer me. Your voice can cheer up my mood. Your presence can change my emotion. Dats y I treasure u alot..

Now back in HTA, i have trouble adapting to the life here back. I have to adapt to it again. I feel very very tired. To be honest, I've been sleeping alot since Monday. I realli have no idea. Maybe my body need to adapt to the HTA life back i guess. Now back to normal with PTs and Drill Lessons. S0 different life outside.

Even though my Baby didnt know that my internet connection is back online, (shhhh!) hehehhe, I jus wanna tell her dats she matters to me so much. We need each other in terms of love, support and encouragement. I love her alot. I dont like her to suffer. I like to see her excel in her studies 1st, then the things she like to do most. I have a quote:"Bie, u dont become a policeman can? U seldom msg me while u're n duty. I rather have u work as a normal civilian K?" Sooo the very cute.. Miss me so much izit? Dun werry Baby. Hubby didnt ferget bout u. Not even a single day i go about not thinking bout u.

I have a great girlfriend, a great family, great frens and a great life.. I like to thank God alot for what he have given me. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

La Notte De Cadetto

The nite we all have been waiting for.. Alot of planning and important decisions my buddy[SYED MD] has to make. I personally tank him and his welfare committee for their efforts in this Social Nite.

Before the nite itself, kena PT jialat2 in the morning already.. Shall not elaborate bout dat. Bonus knee jap was generously accidentally givento me by Kenneth aka P****Juice aka OCT3 treasurer, during the "tao pok" incident. Got a bit of swelling and bruise near my right eyebrow. Its gone now Hunnie.. Didnt wanna werri u..

Half day! Hurray! But no bike. Take bus home.. Haha.. Sad? Yes.. Half2. Sad=No Bike Happy=Social Nite. Reach Home straight go sLeep. Beh tahan liao.

Honey came to my House to dress up together. She look super sweet and elegant with the pearl neckless and white heels i bought for her with my GST money, which i bet she didnt know. I repeat again, you look super sweet, elegant and gorgeous Sayang. Well, arrive at the Grand Corpthorne Hotel's Restaurant "PONTINI" with Syed and Mairah. Suddenly, the spotlight was on me and my Darlin' u can take a look at some pics of how we dressed up. Well guys, "Old Man" isnt as "Old" as u think. He knows how to dress up for appropriate occasions aite. Shocking ryte? Hahahaha.. Dat was a surprise for u guys. As I walk wish my princess to my seat, jaws are dropping, hearts are aching and eyes are tearing up as how Graceful this particular couple was.

Speech by blah blah blah, another speech by blah blah blah.. Pictures! Click! Click! Click! Loove taking pictures! With my sayang and most of my OCT frens. Had some good food althought the chicken does taste like chicken. the smoke salmon and beef was full of taste. My first time eating those kind of hotel dishes. We talk among my table, introduce our partners, had a good laugh talking bout our 'habits' in our barrack and lecture theatre..

Took group pictures at the end of the day. Relax for a while after the nite was over den head home. Overall comment: Could be done much better. Alot of rooms for improvements. And a Salute my Buddy for making sure the even ran smoothly althou back in camp he said he didnt enjoy his social nite. Well bro, we dont need to be really enjoying, Bonding is the main thing here.

EOD Rating 9/10 (could have been 10/10 as not for the absence of my bike)

ENJOY THE PICS!

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Guess how many I Love Us are there.. Nite Nite Baby~ Have a good nite sleep.. Sweetest Dreamz tonite my Baby.. =D

Bike-less

Hello ppl!.. I've been bz with HTBC [Home Team Basic Course] recently.. 2 things to touch on: Weekends & HTBC

• I wanna talk bout my bikeless weekend. Haiz... I have to say I'm suffering but YET, I'm trying my best to forget about it. Its not dat I'm not use to taking bus or a get lost going sumewhere.. Its jus dats I MISS MY BIKE, I MISS MY BIKE, I MISS MY BIKE, I MISS MY BIKE, I MISS MY BIKE, I REALLY REALLY MISS MY BIKE!. Its alot easier to get around. I can do alot of things. Send my darLin' to school, send Daddy to werk, go out to buy food for my family. Its jus ALOT easier. I feel sad leaving my bike at the MSCP, knowing that its unfunctionable for the time being. Its the bonding I have with my bike. It has always been Me, My Darlin' & My Bike. Those bikers out there will somehow know how i feel and somehow agree with me.
  
• Did nuthing much on fri sat. Just rott at home. My Darlin' and I cant stand it sitting at home, so on Sunday, we went to ECP. Code Name: Budget Camping. Took long bus rides which I have not experience for quite a while. Set up tent, blah blah blah, HUNGRY! No problem. Formula: Solid Fuel+Messtin+Boiling Water+IndoMee= LUNCH! Hahaha.. Yup, we did exactly dat. Thanks to my survival skills in NPCC, ARMY and SPF, we got to each fresh IndoMee! Hahaha.. Was fun actually. U guys should actually try it some day. The rest of the day was mostly relaxing and story telling and gossiping and yadda yadda yadda yadda.. Execellent Bike-less weekend!

• HTBC: 8days of MARATHON of lectures, very LITTLE rest. Today is the last day after 8 days. I've made alot of good frens and aquantence from SCDF, ICA & the Regular SPFs.. The bond dat we've made through activities such as Introductory, Ice Breaking, Treasure Hunt, Excursions and the fun times we had during Social Nite will ALWAYS be embedded in my mind, my heart. Hope to bump into you guys in the course of action or wherever it may be. Please do approach me if you guys meet me outside. We'll have some outing or some lepak session. Hahaha.. I've to say this lah, I'll miss you guys. bLUE rYThM is the Best! G-O, G-O, GO!!!

PS: Dun forget to distribute our pics. Send via email aite!

Weekend Rating: 8½/10

Our Pics

The time when our beloved bike kena tow because the piston jam..

My Lovely Hubby

My hubby is a cute & charming hubby indeed. He always take care of my feelings whenever I am with him..He have done a very great job as my hubby. No one can replace him if i were to choose a husband for now. However, ppl always said that as time passes by, people will change drastically. But i believe in my current hubby that he will not do all such thing to me. (if you did, doda gigit hubby lebam2 arh!!!)..haha. We treasure every moments we had together no matter what. Eventhough it is only for awhile but it is worth while meeting him even for a second. I love my hubby many2.

Dear..
Doda need u.
U need me.
I can bet u.
U will be happy all the time with me.

U make me felt secured.
U ensure i am alright.
I am never bored.
because u r my Mr. Right.

Ohhh..hubby..
U & me will never be far apart.
We are ment to be together.
Even how smelly U fart.
Every moment we will still be closer.

To my beloved Hubby.
Your darling "bushuk!"
DODA :)

Haha..Wat a day..

for your detailed information..
my hubby is not discipline on the road. he like to say vulgarities,horn to another vehicle(got new horn mah..)and also catch-up with another vehicle if they did some wrong.
Hais..hubby,thank god your gal r here..you need more patience.
His bike got jammed at PIE.haisss...doda felt worried because hubby need to book in.tapi takpelah..i have fun wit him coz hubby dah tk bnyk uban.doda dah cabot smbil 2nggu tow truck.haha..thanks to doda..

k la..wanna finish up my assignment.anything i will beep you k dear..

i love u dear..!!

The Day My Bike's Heart Stopped..

I never imagine this wud happen to my beloved bike. Served me well. My piston jammed while i was chasing this muthafukin car which jus whizz past me (who's at the 1st lane) and another car (which is on the 2nd lane).. Get the picture?? What the hell is he thingkin'?? KNN! PCB! Cannot wait ah?? Wife sucking yur cock izit dats y yur brain went all the way down to yur dick.. U driving car or riding bike.. Ride bike i can understand ah fren.. Kam Lan Ciao lah u driving a car u know.. Tried to chase him.. Fer a few seconds i was coming closer n closer to him.. Den.. I started to loose power.. Chucking sound heard from under my tank.. 1st thought - Piston Jam! Quick! Clutch in! Houston we got a problem.. Mayday! Mayday!.. 5444 is going down!.. I repeat! 5444 is going down! Due to my quick thinkin, lightnin reaction and sharp reflexes, we manage to land safely at the road shoulder. Damn.. piston has been jammed.. Manage to call the tow truck to tow to my house.. Sad to see my machine go down.. Now more headache.. Where to get money to do repairs to my bike?? Haiz.. I was sad, angry, funny all at the same time.. At home, I lie on my bed thinking.. Trying to relax my mind.. Tryin not to shed tears.. Well, almost.. Problems after problems.. Like there is no peace for me.. If this wouldnt have happen, it would be another great weekend already..


Rating: 3/10

Im Here For You

Dear..
i am here dear..sorry for not updating about our stuff in the blog.i have been busy lately.i hope u undrstnd dear.i love u my Dear..u have always been my pillar wheneva i need you the most.watever ppl say will not gona chg my mind bout u.it doesnt bother us at all coz i believe that we can last forever.ppl can say that im a flirt or what but did they ever reflect themselves??no rite??haha...who bothers..i know myself better than them.they are just being jealous..it will never bring them to anywhere whereas they will be collecting more sins by gossipping.stupid kan..wat they earn by bitching ppl??popularity??take lah..i dont mind..
i have great tym with hubby last weekend.so great!!but now,ur baby gerl is very sick..hope u understand dear..she feel so down but ur words have inspired and motivated her alot..She need your advise the most!!Sayang,u dont have to worry bout other guy frens that i had..they are just bunch of frens.u r my soul.u r the one that i need the most.girls,u may be jealous or wat so ever..but who cares bout ur feelings..we will gona stick together FOREVER!!

Dear,
my resolution with you this year are:
1)To love you more everyday
2)To make you happy whenever u are with me
3)To spend tym with you more than anyone else except my family lah..
4)To make you & my family proud by achieving great results and proceed to polytechnic.
5)To be a responsible daughter,girlfriend,student & friend eventhough they bitched me around..

Last but certainly not the least..
I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!

Weekends

I have to admit dat I had a great weekend wit ma Gerl.. We spent time together, not the quantity dat counts but the quality time dat matters.. I like to send her to werk, Pick her up from werk. I'm so used to it. We went to the same place where we use to go. Some ppl, even my parents say I'll get bored or "Aren't u tired always being together" FYI, I dont mind Me and Ma Gerl sticking like glue wherever we go 24/7, 365. And I'll NEVER get bored with her. I like her being my Co-pilot(Pillion), I like her being my fren to share her opinions with me, I like her being my partner, always together criticising others.. Hehe.. NEVER gonna get bored with her. Dats just Us. Next pointer, My whole family went out to West Coast Fd Centre aka Ayer Raja Fd Centre to have dinner together. It's been AGES since we went out together. SweetHart wanted to come along but my Mama said its not appropriate as this is a family outing. If possible i wanted her to tag along but......... Not dat my Dad dislike ma Gerl or anithing like dat but its just the "unappropriate" thingy. So too bad Sweetie. Moving on, We ate satay, stingray, baby squids, blah.. blah.. blah.. blah.. Bumed into our KL relatives there. Chatter2 Chit2 fer a while b4 Heading back home. I feel great after going out with my family. To add the icing to the cake, Bike Rapairs + Pass Inspection = Road Tax Renewed. PHEW~! I had to admit dat after the renewal of my bike, feels like a huge burden was being lifted from my shoulders. I think its time to rate my weekends.. Gd idea Hafiz..

Rating: 9/10

Hubby outz~!

My 1st New Year Celebration

Yup, the title says it all. This is the 1st time out of my 23 years living in Singapore, I'm celebrating my new year. As in literally celebrating. Usually I will be at home sleepin', or countdown-ing at werk(Pizzahut) baking and cutting bloody pizzas for customers. This time, Its different babe. I "counted down" along with our dearest Merlion with my Sweetheart at the Fullerton. My first official Countdown. My first time watching the fireworks LIVE! Usually i will be watching it live but on television or the repeat telecast or worst, never watch at all. I was impress. Totally different feeling. The spectacular fireworks, the patterns, the sound (which reminds me alot of TEKONG). And I made a promise to myself dat I'll be witnessing alot more fireworks in the years to come LIVE! And of course, with my Lovely Raudhah.
My anniversary on 27th Dec, 1st Countdown together, 1st time watching LIVE fireworks, do u think I can forget 2008??

We're already in 2009(Church bell ringin). Lots of aims, Lots to achieve. I've set my aim. Jus need some booster to get things done. Wish all my frens, Fuhuans, Yuhuans, SPians, OCTs, Pizzahut staff, a Happy Delightful New Year.

And to my Love, We'll start afresh, really strive into our relationship. We'll throw away our bad habits and pick up the good ones. More commitments, less arguements, stronger bonding, everlasting trust to make it through all the way.

Sticking to ya Like Glue..

Hubby signin outz~

Here are some pics that we took. Enjoy: